...4 YEARS LATER!!! WHAT'S NEW?

My journey back to this space has been one of many uncertainties. Why did I stop blogging? Why did I start in the first place? What has happened in the last four years and why now? These are the questions that have kept me on the sidelines while I was watching in. I would stand on the banks of this raging river called the SOUL that yearns to flow freely charting its own path downstream. Yet, my feet would feel like they were cemented in place and my body would sway back and fourth as if taunting me and asking, "I jump? I go?''. My heart, forever emotional about everything would beat harder and louder, expanding and contracting trying to supply blood around my body but in actual fact was scared of all the unknowns that lay beneath the surface of the water.

Just jump! Try! What is the worst that can happen? These are some of the responses I would receive whenever I sought motivation and validation from others. Then they would leave and I was back where I started, staring at the screen and miraculously hoping the keyboard would read my mind as it transcribed my thoughts to the paper. None of that happened. As I sit here typing, a part of me is shouting don't do it! Or another urging me to keep writing. If I get to the end, then you'll know which part won.

The last four years have been very eventful, large milestones, disappointments, growth spurts, one more baby and lots of learning. To go through each one would require a sun-filled retreat at a boutique hotel with unlimited food and drinks to fully exhaust the past. So as we journey again together, like old friends who have not seen each other for ages, the stories of the past will find their way into our conversations and I am sure we will have moments for empathy, joy, sadness, a little envy and love to share. 

During my learning, I had numerous times when I wished there was a cheat sheet, but as life has it, one has to pass through every single little experience for themselves independently of others. Although situations may be similar and sometimes exact, we all process it in a manner that is unique to us. This allows us to add colour, depth, creativity, drama and uniqueness to this universe. 

The creation of this blog was as a result of a need to document my journey as a housewife -  at that time and mother to my daughter. My objective was that as she grew older and would face the challenges, joys, uncertainties, fears and doubts I go through as I raise her, she would have a reference point to help her navigate through her own journey. Back then this sounded so poetic and noble, however it is far from the true picture. It is so hard to be alert and aware of every experience I go through plus to keep re-living them especially the painful ones so that someone else may perhaps benefit from my journey. The easier option is to live life, hope your doing the right thing and trust that will be enough. 

        

 "...my kids they keep me on toes".😍😍

As I attempt this task again, this time as a wife, mother of two and an entrepreneur. The task ahead is more daunting than ever. On the other hand, what adventure stories will I share when I am old, with no teeth, wrinkled and expected to have wisdom by the upcoming generation?😕😕

I have found myself asking those who are older, how did you do this? or how did you guys nurture your marriage, when you were my age? Amongst many other questions, I am here to unravel the mystery called life. Some of my memories are sketchy, while others simply reply, "I do not remember", and many will also say, "Your experiences and situations are different from mine". All these are true, yet a feeling of I wish you could remember or had written it down somewhere would always linger inside me.

Why bother yet there are numerous books and resources available on Google that can help you with reflecting on the past and learning from other people? 

My answer remains, ''the depth and impact lasts longer when the person speaking/sharing or teaching is someone you can relate with."

So I invite you to join me on this journey, as I document the highs, lows, and in-betweens of living in  Mombasa as a wife, mother, entrepreneur, friend, big sister, confidant..... the list keeps growing.

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I would like this platform to be inclusive & collaborative so please write to me if you would also like to share a piece of your life journey. 😊😊

Thanks for reading.

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