Inside Man

As the days go by in life we are faced by different circumstances; some make us stronger, others open our eyes to what is really important, some remind us to be grateful, while others can make us bitter and sad. All these are stored somewhere in our minds and when similar situations emerge again in our lives, we draw strength from such times to overcome the new challenge. I found this concept very interesting as i went through some of my moments that were captured and frozen in time. I realized as i intently looked at the picture the person staring back at me was not entirely the same person i am today. The physical features appeared relatively the same but as i remembered the story behind the still moment i could feel the changes that had occured over time.



I realized most of the changes we go through affect our inner being more than our outward appearance and it diifers between persons and from one situation to another. Life cuts into us on a daily basis slowly eating away the hope of realizing dreams, the confidence gathered over the years from the victorious days and the faith to believe that better days lie ahead. In most cases leaving one empty, discouraged and almost lifeless.

This year for me has had several days where i have felt like this, the horizon is expansive yet to me it looked bleak. As i stood to observe my situation i noticed people would pass by, capture still moments and continue with their journey.My inside man would remain tourtured by the desire to belong and be part of the convoy that seemed to be going somewhere yet the more i tried the more it hurt. It was easier to adopt the "ce qui sera sera - whatever will be will be" mentality only to discover that too was not sustainable. I refused to continue existing and wanted to live again.

My inside man realized just as the lonely tree in the middle of the nowhere; it continued to thrive because of its deep roots. I too needed to dig deeper to draw nutrients from my own root system if i was to thrive as well. This allowed me to push past all the hopeless feelings and re-examine my situation through a fresh pair of eyes that were thoroughly washed with gratitude. It is not easy to have the inside man happy and healthy always yet he is such an integral part of your being. The next time life threatens to rob you of joy, purpose and hope; remind yourself of the extensive root system you posses within, dig deep, lift your head high, and keep facing forward.

....He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion....